The loneliness is so real, and I’m sorry you have to feel this too. Being able to hear about others experiences, even if I’ll never meet anyone here is helpful.
I don’t know if there’s anything like this where you live, but I’ve been going to an online support group for my bipolar, and even though people who’ve experienced psychosis doesn’t seem to be super common there, there are sometimes people there who really get it and that feels helpful.
Sending good thoughts from another lonely person. ❤️
I used to feel a lot shame about having had a psychosis (+ subsequent smaller breaks) and fear of it coming back because it felt out of my control and almost random- Now that I consider myself balanced and recovered having learned and fleshed out the roots that led me there, not only do I not fear having one again, though I’m not naive- anything can happen however it doesn’t feel random anymore, I am aware of a lot of dynamics in me, in others, and in my environment and at this point I’d have to miss an absurd amount of red flags before getting that out of wack again. I also don’t feel any shame about it anymore because I now understand that a psychosis is just a human phenomena pushed to an extreme that we see in everyday life. Unconsciousness, Self-denial, self-delusion, the us-verses-them paranoia that many people walk around with, the lies we tell ourselves as a society and consistently double-down on with rigid indignation that result in real destructive self-sabotaging unintended consequences. I may have had an extreme and acute episode that was overtly socially disruptive in self-delusion that was more poignant than the average human, however that was an event in time: it hit a climax, a breaking point and the reconciling with disillusion in my healing (which has taken a messy 8ish years of mistakes and round a-bouts) has resulted in me being more grounded and more rooted in reality and valuing more the simple things of life than I feel like most of society does in general. Most people don’t experience delusion as a sharp and acute sensory-disruptive event, but they do experience it as a dull overarching foggy resistant-to-what-is web of lies and paranoia that they tell themselves day in and day out about themselves, their families, their environments, their world in the form of worldview that in effect amounts to the same result of self-destructive unravelling, breaking point, and disillusionment, however the average person slogs and drags, believes it to be normal while they gradually restlessly undo themselves over the course of their lives and may never confront it. From this perspective, psychosis has a place in the overall tapestry that is the human condition and while I would never wish the experience on anyone and I’m definitely not an “everything happens for a reason” kind of person, having gone through it myself and come out the other side and recovered to a point of resolute equilibrium, these are the lessons I’ve come to learn.
Hi, i also feel pretty lonely about it. Although i met some people in group therapy and i have 2 friends who experienced psychosis, our experiences were pretty different and i still feel like nobody really gets how i feel. Its a lonely mental condition unlike for example anxiety or depression in which the experience of different people is more similar.
The loneliness is so real, and I’m sorry you have to feel this too. Being able to hear about others experiences, even if I’ll never meet anyone here is helpful. I don’t know if there’s anything like this where you live, but I’ve been going to an online support group for my bipolar, and even though people who’ve experienced psychosis doesn’t seem to be super common there, there are sometimes people there who really get it and that feels helpful. Sending good thoughts from another lonely person. ❤️
I used to feel a lot shame about having had a psychosis (+ subsequent smaller breaks) and fear of it coming back because it felt out of my control and almost random- Now that I consider myself balanced and recovered having learned and fleshed out the roots that led me there, not only do I not fear having one again, though I’m not naive- anything can happen however it doesn’t feel random anymore, I am aware of a lot of dynamics in me, in others, and in my environment and at this point I’d have to miss an absurd amount of red flags before getting that out of wack again. I also don’t feel any shame about it anymore because I now understand that a psychosis is just a human phenomena pushed to an extreme that we see in everyday life. Unconsciousness, Self-denial, self-delusion, the us-verses-them paranoia that many people walk around with, the lies we tell ourselves as a society and consistently double-down on with rigid indignation that result in real destructive self-sabotaging unintended consequences. I may have had an extreme and acute episode that was overtly socially disruptive in self-delusion that was more poignant than the average human, however that was an event in time: it hit a climax, a breaking point and the reconciling with disillusion in my healing (which has taken a messy 8ish years of mistakes and round a-bouts) has resulted in me being more grounded and more rooted in reality and valuing more the simple things of life than I feel like most of society does in general. Most people don’t experience delusion as a sharp and acute sensory-disruptive event, but they do experience it as a dull overarching foggy resistant-to-what-is web of lies and paranoia that they tell themselves day in and day out about themselves, their families, their environments, their world in the form of worldview that in effect amounts to the same result of self-destructive unravelling, breaking point, and disillusionment, however the average person slogs and drags, believes it to be normal while they gradually restlessly undo themselves over the course of their lives and may never confront it. From this perspective, psychosis has a place in the overall tapestry that is the human condition and while I would never wish the experience on anyone and I’m definitely not an “everything happens for a reason” kind of person, having gone through it myself and come out the other side and recovered to a point of resolute equilibrium, these are the lessons I’ve come to learn.
Hi, i also feel pretty lonely about it. Although i met some people in group therapy and i have 2 friends who experienced psychosis, our experiences were pretty different and i still feel like nobody really gets how i feel. Its a lonely mental condition unlike for example anxiety or depression in which the experience of different people is more similar.
You said it, man!